Whatever

Whatever! I am so tired of everything. I dont care anymore. Dont ask me to care. But other than that I am doing good.

We got our AC fixed so now I have been busy cleaning my house since when I didnt have AC I really didnt do anything. It was to hot and my asthma has been acting up on me lately because it has been so hot.

The other day I woke up shaking and hardly breathing. Joel was going to stay home but I told him that I would call mom and dad and have them call you if I needed anything, it was sweet because he called me every hour on the dot to make sure I was doing ok. I love my hubby! I love having people in my life that I can truley count on instead of having to but my faith in people that I dont know if they will come around. But whatever, I know who I can count on and I know that God knows who I can count on, but first and formost it is God. He is always there for me when I really need Him.

I am proud to be a Christian and I am not scared to show it. I may not a very good Christian but I am working on myself to become the Christian, God wants me to be and I am proud of myself to see where in life I am now and where I was before I found the Lord. I have made a huge jump. I hear it every now and then from people that they are proud of who I am becoming and that makes me feel really good because I have worked really hard.

I pray every day for the Lord to help me with my struggles. And I pray for family and friends. I have become better at praying but I still dont think I can do it aloud for others to hear me, I barely can do it in front of my husband. But again I am working on that. I will one day lead in prayer for something and feel great that I did it.