OOO BABY!

Wow I cant believe it has been over a month since I had my little man! He was born Oct 19th 2010! He weighed 9lbs 1oz and was 21in long. All the nurses we shocked that I had such a big baby since I am so small. He is the love of my life besides my daughter and husband. My family is getting bigger and the only person I can thank for that is my Lord and Saviour. He has blessed my family abundently this year and I know He will continue to bless us.

Baby Joel is doing very well. He did break out in hives but they are going away and he cant handle me drinking milk so I have stopped drinking it. Oh well, life goes on and I will live without it, but I am going to try to get Soy Milk and see if that helps any.

He is getting so big and it makes me tear upo just thinking that it wont be long before he is crawling and then walking. Time goes by to fast, I want my little boy to stay little. He loves to cuddle and he hardly ever cries. He is a camp at breastfeeding and I plan on doing it until he weans himself, yes even if that is for 2yrs. Kids get great benefits from breastfeeding at 2, I probably couldnt go past 2yrs though without feeling weird about it. LOL! I even enjoy breastfeeding, I have gotten alot of things out if it and I know it is best for my baby.

Its almost Christmas, the day my Saviour was born! I cant wait, I love it and I love being with family and friends.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving with their families, I know I did! And I think I ate enough to last me a life time, expecially the homemade pecan pie my Mother in law made.

Braxton Hicks

All I have to say is that I hate them. I never had with with my daughter and I didnt want them but guess what I have them and have had them for 2 weeks now. They suck.

Not much else is going on with me or the family. Just thought I would update a little.

Not a very good morning

So this morning I get up and decide to ask my sister if she is excited that she will be coming down here soon. Of course she tells me yes, but then adds I have something to tell you. My mind goes racing and my heart starts pounding. I knew as soon as she said that what she needed to tell me. But I asked her anyway what it was. She said she thinks she is pregnant and that yesterday she took 3 test and they were all positive. At that moment my heart dropped and I couldnt do anything but cry. I wanted her to have a better life then I have, not saying my life is bad but I had a child at a young age and I know how hard it is to keep the plans that you have for your future when you are expecting a little one. Dont get me wrong I wouldnt know what to do with out my daughter, she is my world. Maybe I am just over doing it and maybe I shouldnt care, but she is my baby sister and I love her and always want the best for her. Her bf already has a child with another women, I just dont want him to leave her like he left his last. So I asked her if they planned on having a baby together, she told me no but they werent doing anything to prevent it, she wouldnt get birth control and he didnt use a condom she also told me he doesnt like them...to me that is kinds planning it.
I love my sister and always will! I am not mad at her, I am just very disappointed.

Cant Believe

I was sitting here the last few days thinking about how time has flown by in this pregnancy. I have no clue where the time went or the days, I swear it feels like yesterday I got my BFP!

But I also cant believe how people can be. I was in walmart with my hubby and daughter and we ran into a friend of my husbands and he told them that we were expecting another baby, and the women looks over at me and say" I just thought you were fat." OMG, never in my life have a been over weight or fat, never been over 130, and thats when I am pregnant. I was pissed and sad at the same time, because the only area on my that has gotten big is my belly, no where else on my body has got big. I really wanted to slap that women in her face...gosh, you dont say things like that to anyone, expecially someone that is pregnant....grrrrr!

So anyway, enough about me being mad.

I am 78more days give or take until I get to hold my baby boy. Not looking forward to the end of this week, because I get to drink that nasty drink for the gestational diabetes test. YUCK! I hope I pass it with flying colors! But at least I get to have another ultrasound and get to see my little man and hubby and I will be meeting friends for lunch after my appointment, then going to go swimming at their house and spend the day with them!

3rd Trimester!

Well I finally hit the 3rd trimester! I am so excited! It is the home stretch for me and my little man. I cant wait to hold him and kiss him.
Hubby is so excited, this is his first child. We have a little girl, but she isnt his biological daughter, but he loves her more then any man could love a little girl. He makes my heart flutter to know that he has been there for her and has treated her as if she were really his.
Hubby has been talking to my tummy telling baby Joel to get in the right position and to come easy for mommy..lol! I think it is cute that he talks to him but the things he says makes me laugh so hard that I end up peeing on myself. Which causes hubby to laugh at me.
My daughter is 4yrs old and loves her little brother so much. She is always coming up to me and hugs my belly telling me she is hugging baby Joel. She even kisses my belly. She is going to be a great big sister.
She says one thing to me everytime I go to a doctors appointment that makes me laugh so hard, again I end up peeing on myself. She tells me "are you going to to doctor to lay down and fart to baby out?" I wish it were that easy...lol!

My baby shower is coming up soon and I cant wait to see all the things I get for my baby boy!
I hope my sister-in-law and mother-in-law have done a good job getting things together, I know that sounds rude, but I am bad with letting someone else plan things for me. I am so nosey, I want to know everything, i cant stand sitting back and waiting. LOL!

Count Down Begins!

I told my husband last night that the count down begins. He thought I was crazy but I told him we have 100 days left(99 now) until we get to hold our little boy.
I am so excited, I am not sure what I want to do first when I have him. I know everyone in the family will be there and want to see him and hold him and take pics of him expecially Marielle, my mother and mother in law.
I am still trying to get a cute coming home outfit or pjs, depending on how the weather is. I would like him in clothes and not pjs but whatever I find that is cute.
A little over 3months left. I cant believe how time has flown by. I could swear it was yesterday that I got my BFP and was callin everyone to tell them. I have no idea where the time went, but I am just fine with that because it just means I get to see my little man soon!!!!

He is very active and I love that about him, except when I am trying to sleep...lol!

People keep telling me that maybe since he is so active in the womb, when he gets out maybe he wont be so active. But I look at them and say have you ever met his daddy..LOL!

Yes my husband is a very active person, but he has settled down alot since we found out we were having our 2nd child.

One thing I am not very happy about is this hot weather we have been having. I have to stay inside so much it sucks. I wish it werent so hot but I guess that what is what I get living in the south!
At least it doesnt get to cold during the cold season.

I just want October to get here, but I also want it to come slowly because I still have alot of things to get together and ready for the baby.

99more days!
Will be 26wks tomorrow the 6th of July!

Baby Boy!

OH MY! It has been forever since I have even updated this blog. I am so behind..lol!

Lets see...

I found out I am having a baby boy!!!
We are naming him Joel Andrew Jr!
His due date is Oct 12th, but hubby and I are wanting him to come Oct 10th!

I have been doing good.
Having a little pain in my tummy and pelvic area.
Has been getting braxton hicks alot, gosh i HATE them.
I am going to be gettting my hair done next month, I am going to color and cut it and I cant wait! I have been trying to find a pattern to make my own hospital gown, but I cant find any..grr!
Been working on the baby things. Cant wait to hold my little man.
I am a little scared to have a little boy.
Been active in church and family.

Family is really important to me!

My sister is coming down in August!
She is going to help me with Jaden while I am with the baby!

Havent really had any family troubles lately but I think that is because we are all to busy.
Makes me sad because I enjoy doing family things, but everyone has their own lives.

My SIL had a little girl in April.
Her name is Lily!
She is adorable!

I was excited and happy for my SIL when she had her little girl, but I was also broken hearted.
Sometimes when I see my neice I still feel the broken heartedness.
But I know my little one is a better place and I will some day get to see and hold them.

Cant believe that I have little over 3months left, till I see my little man!
Everyone tells me I am much bigger then I was with my daughter but I dont think so!


Thats me at 24wks!

My sil Marielle and my mother in law Debbie are doing my baby shower together!
Cant wait!
It will be in August some time!

Kick..Kick

Today has been a good day! I was checking my email this morning and had one hand on my tummy and felt the baby kick. It was so amazing again to experience life in my body. I even had Jaden feel the baby kick and she was like why is he kicking me, hes going to hurt me...i laughed and told her if he hurts anyone it will be me soon! I have been thanking God for this blessing that I get to carry and raise to be Christ Loving!

I told Joel and he told me he hope he is still kicking when he gets home from work because he wants to feel it! He was excited!

Happy but Sad...

I am happy but I am sad all at the same time. It is kinda stressing me out. My heart breaks everytime I think about it.

I am happy and excited because my neice was born yesterday and she is beautiful! I am proud of my SIL, she recovered very fast from her c-section. my neices name is Lily Emily Elaine Dickey, and she was 7lbs 13oz 21in long!

But I am sad and depressed because May 5th would have been my due date if I didnt have a miscarriage, I didnt think that it woudl be this hard since I am pregnant again and due in October. But my heart aches so much, that I will not be able to hold my little one when I should be. I thought I was over my miscarriage but I guess I was wrong.

I cried myself to sleep lastnight because it is becoming reality that I will not be holding my little one next month.

I pray daily for my little one that I lost, and I know that he/she is in Heaven with my Lord and Savior but the baby will always be a part of me that I am missing and will always miss, even when this one is born.

New Year

It is a New Year with new things to happen. One thing that I pray for daily is to have a baby before the year 2010 is over, that means I need to get pregnant between now and march.

I hate that I had a miscarriage last month which ruined alot of things for me. I was so excited and then it was torn from my body, which made me depressed. I try not to show my feeling when I am around someone that has a baby or is pregnant that it bothers me so much. sometime I just want to take theirs away so they can feel like I have felt and still am feeling, but I dont wish upon anyone to have a miscarriage. I swear out of all the things that have happened to me in my past that was the worse thing to happen. My heart is broken and is missing a piece of life. I wont have a baby to hold and and feed at 4am..lol! Yes I have a beautiful daughter that is my life and soul and I wouldnt give her up for anything, but I am wanting a little tiny baby to share my love with too. No one would or could take the place of my daughter.

So I pray daily that the Lord will bless me and Joel with having a baby before the year is up. I would even take conceiving before the year is up, and yes I know it is only the beginning of the year but I am planing now.

My daughters name will be Sophie Elaine Ann Stair!
My sons name will be Joel Andrew Stair Jr!

This year is suppose to be the year of PEACE. So I pray that we all have peace in our hearts and soul and in our minds. Lord bring us peace!

My New Years resolution is to become closer to God and to have a baby!