Contentment?!

So what is contentment?
Do you struggle with it?

I do! Not that it is a good thing but I know I do, so I am not going to deny it at all. I use to deny it all the time, but now with God showing me the way I have come to realize I am very uncontent with the things around me. I am trying to be content with what the world around me because I know there is a much bigger and better place for me as long as I know the Saviour and follow His words daily. I may struggle with it, but it will get better day by day.
I have gotten a little better, I have turned down buying a dress I really want from Maurices about 5 times, even though I keeep having then put it on hold. I realizes if anyone needs clothes it is my daughter and my husband needs a new pair of dress shoes for work because the pair he has now the sole is coming apart from the rest of the shoe. He has superglued it together for 2 months now.

I pray that my contentment will get better and I will learn to work with the things around me to make them better. I want a house so bad but I know in my heart that it will be a while before Joel and I can get one, so I sit and ponder what can I do to the place I live in now to make it "home!"

I want another baby, but I know that God will see it fit when the right time for Joel and I to have another. He told us to multiply so He will grant me my prayer one day, soon or later in life. I am giving it to God. I also pray that my friend can come to that conclusion.

I pray that my mother will grow to know the Lord the way I do. I want her to accept Him as her personal saviour. She needs His guidence, so until then I will be that guidence. I will show her the love He has given to me to share. Thank you Lord Jesus, for giving me that chance and opportunity! I will use it wisely!