Sometimes

Sometimes, I get jealous really easy. Thats one thing about me that I do not like. I am trying to change that, but I know it will take time.
I have changed alot in the past 3 years and I wouldnt go back for anything. I love my life now I just wish and want things to be better and the way I want it. I pray daily that the Lord with help me with my jealousy. It hurts to see people with things that I want and it seems like that didnt have to work for it, or that they were blessed with it because they couldnt wait so they jumped right into it. My husband wont jump into big things, except buying a hand gun, but whatever, if it is bigger then that or if it is my dream I have to wait. I hate waiting. I am the most impatient person anyone will ever meet. I love my husband so much but I have thought about leaving because he is not giving me what I want and he makes me wait. I grew up spoiled and to not be spoiled now sucks big butt.

On another hand, I have gotten better since my miscarriage. My body is going back to normal. My feelings have been delt with and the Lord is helping me through this just as I asked Him too. He is with me wherever I am and is giving me the strength to get through this. I know now that there is a greater purpose in this and I am going to let it happen. My Lord with not forsake me, he will always be true to his words!