I am happy but I am sad all at the same time. It is kinda stressing me out. My heart breaks everytime I think about it.
I am happy and excited because my neice was born yesterday and she is beautiful! I am proud of my SIL, she recovered very fast from her c-section. my neices name is Lily Emily Elaine Dickey, and she was 7lbs 13oz 21in long!
But I am sad and depressed because May 5th would have been my due date if I didnt have a miscarriage, I didnt think that it woudl be this hard since I am pregnant again and due in October. But my heart aches so much, that I will not be able to hold my little one when I should be. I thought I was over my miscarriage but I guess I was wrong.
I cried myself to sleep lastnight because it is becoming reality that I will not be holding my little one next month.
I pray daily for my little one that I lost, and I know that he/she is in Heaven with my Lord and Savior but the baby will always be a part of me that I am missing and will always miss, even when this one is born.
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