It is a New Year with new things to happen. One thing that I pray for daily is to have a baby before the year 2010 is over, that means I need to get pregnant between now and march.
I hate that I had a miscarriage last month which ruined alot of things for me. I was so excited and then it was torn from my body, which made me depressed. I try not to show my feeling when I am around someone that has a baby or is pregnant that it bothers me so much. sometime I just want to take theirs away so they can feel like I have felt and still am feeling, but I dont wish upon anyone to have a miscarriage. I swear out of all the things that have happened to me in my past that was the worse thing to happen. My heart is broken and is missing a piece of life. I wont have a baby to hold and and feed at 4am..lol! Yes I have a beautiful daughter that is my life and soul and I wouldnt give her up for anything, but I am wanting a little tiny baby to share my love with too. No one would or could take the place of my daughter.
So I pray daily that the Lord will bless me and Joel with having a baby before the year is up. I would even take conceiving before the year is up, and yes I know it is only the beginning of the year but I am planing now.
My daughters name will be Sophie Elaine Ann Stair!
My sons name will be Joel Andrew Stair Jr!
This year is suppose to be the year of PEACE. So I pray that we all have peace in our hearts and soul and in our minds. Lord bring us peace!
My New Years resolution is to become closer to God and to have a baby!
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