Well this morning I didnt get out of bed until 11:30am, I got on and check my email and my facebook and Sandra was on and I talked to her for a little while.
I told her I had housework to do once again. Laundry, dishes and everything else, it never ends. Why do I have to do it all. No one helps me, I feel that I carry all the burden on my shoulders, I have tried giving it to God but it never seems to work. Is there something wrong with me? I try and try to get closer to God and something always gets in the way and I loose what I was trying to do,I have even said to myself that I have given up in many areas of my life because nothing good has come from it, I dont see any change.
Today I was looking at pictures of houses online and it made me cry because I dont think I will ever get out of the run down piece of crap trailor. I dont want o live here, I want a home that I can call my own. But the way Joel talks to me, we wont be moving at all, because he likes the fact that no one is making him pay rent as much as he would have to in a place of our own.
I had some friends come over the other day and we talked about a house on Old Monicello dr that I liked and wanted to go look at and they were like there is alot of termit damage and then the next thing I know they were calling my sister in law that is a realistate agent to let them see the inside of it. And now they really like it and are probably going to try to buy it...damn people. I pray that i dont do anything stupid and ruin the friendship that I have with them.
I have peace in my heart that I know my God loves me and is with me at all time!
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